Hate myself for loving you so much

Miserable.
Whatever i do, whatever i say....
I will get a scold from him...
i wonder what happen...

I went to drink yesterday, thanks to Mr Eric!
it hurts again...
its probably my medication...
well... too bad... i was in drinking mood! and thanks to EJ!

Since yesterday, i cant get this person out of my mind...
i wonder whats happening inside me..
I really want to get this person OUT OF ME!
GET OUT!!!!!!!!!
but the more i think about it, the more this person stuck in there... oh god!
must be the alcohol! my urine system will bring this person out then!

i talked to little mindy this afternoon about DA MM PROBLEM...
i dunno why i told her... maybe i was expecting some treatment for it...
however, because of that person, i felt more i need to re-puzzle my life...

life in a puzzle is really unhealthy for academic performance!
oh god, i really need to start getting my ass on to those pile of Psychology Reading!
maybe i should just go and be a nurse or even physiotherapy
they do human biology which i may prefer on... i like bodies...
Psychology....
Psychologist are insane.... and im heading towards it...
I AM MORE INSANE

i hate myself for being myself....